New Year New Nothing

The new year has arrived and I missed the entire morning. Apparently there’s something about new years that means sleep schedules no longer exist, 1pm? The perfect time to wake up.

The whole point of new years is to look back on what you did and try to start a fresh. Make resolutions and stick to them. I always make the same one. I want to get fit before the new school year starts. I’m going to university this year, actually fulfilling that one would be great. But what do I plan to do today? Sit on my arse and read.

This new year new me thing has never sat right with me. Every year when the clock strikes twelve you can bet I go to one of my friends ‘good vibes only this year’ and I’m being ironic, of course I am. Because in what weird world would there be good vibes only. Isn’t it the mix that makes the year good? The good sticks out more against the bad? I don’t know, I’m getting philosophical. Either way, I do believe this year will be no different to last.

I won’t get fit, I probably won’t revise much more for my A-Levels (I really need to, I need to get into university). Nothing of much interest is happening this year outside of education. Nothing fun planned. No big holiday in the summer. I have an empty plan with one of my best friends to meet up over Easter, I’ll keep you updated on that one. Hopefully I’ll pass my driving test, hopefully I make use of my 3 month summer and not just sit on my arse and read. Hopefully calm will be enough to get me through the year and I won’t look back this time next year, being 19 and finished my first term of university and think ‘well that was shit I hope next year will be better’.

I’m scared for my A-Levels I won’t lie to you, I’m horrified that I’ve gone all these years doing so well in school, skipping over my GCSEs thanks to Covid, and now I’m here, actually having to do my exams. And I’ll fail them all. Maybe August will be the month that truly determines if 2022 will be great or a huge disaster. For once New Years resolutions are looking pretty important.

I know New Years Day is a huge sham, but I hope you, wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, are having a good day. And I God hope the universe isn’t against us this year. We’ve had two years of bullshit, surely we deserve a break?